so confused on everything with him. i know i like him so much more than he likes me :(
- don’t get why people slag long distance relationships off, if their both going to put the effort in to see eachother and make it work then leave them. You can’t help how you feel.
Okay here we go.
In September/October last year i had a boyfriend, we only talked for like a month but i didn’t really like him, but everyone told me he liked me, the only thing that hinted he liked me was that he put like 2 rows of kisses.
He’d be like ‘Morning, want to do anything today?:’)xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx’
Idk, he’s really good looking, and like all them kisses kinda made me feel he slightly liked me, then when i was around him, it was like what the fuck, why would such a good looking lad want me?! Anyway yeah, after a month of talking, he asked me out. I didn’t particularly like him, but it was a rush moment, and i said yes. It went well, never ever argued. But in the month we went out, he never told me he loved me, he never ever told me i was at least pretty, idk. He was a poor boyfriend, but i guess i was a bad girlfriend. Anyway yeah he broke up with me cos ‘he didn’t feel the same anymore’. I was fine with it, cos come to think of it, i went out with him for his looks, not personality. Regret it so much.
Anyway, I changed my relationship status to single on facebook. Then this boy from Mansfield popped up on chat. He was like ‘You and ***?:o’ and i told him what happened and he was just like ‘omg i hope you’re okay!x’ we talked like the rest of that night and went on skype to each other. Since then we talked every single day. We then told each other in like November, that we liked each other. See i fell in love with his personality and humor. His looks are just a bonus! He only puts 2 kisses to me, sometimes no kisses, sometimes 1 kiss, a couple of times he’s put like 8 kisses, one time he sent me a text saying ‘Morning princess’ with 100 kisses exactly! I don’t mind the amount of kisses. But wow, he’s so perfect!
He compliments me like every hour, a lot of the time it’s so unexpected. We’ve made all these life plans. Here’s what we want to do:
- Meet as much as possible.
- Go to the same university and live together
- Married aw<3
- 2 kids, boy and a girl! We even discussed names haha!
- And just like spend our lives together, so happy and everything.
We were gonna meet December but he wouldn’t/couldn’t idk :(. Then we were gonna meet January, don’t even know what happened there. We were gonna meet today at Mansfield v Darlington football match as him being from Mansfield and me being from Darlington, it was the perfect fixture! But that game got called off due to frozen pitch. That fucked today up. We ARE going to meet valentines day. He just asked me to be his valentine, so so so so cute.
My whole family like him. All my friends like him. I LOVE him! Like so so so so much! I have really fallen in love with him. We’ve almost been talking 4 months, but it feels so much longer.
He makes me feel good about myself, he always compliments me, he always makes me feel wanted. And he’s gorgeous and kind. Just sometimes i feel he’s ashamed. Like everyone i talk to knows i like him, but the only person he’s told is like one of his close mates. It’s like i feel he’s ashamed to tell anyone but he says it’s just cos they’ll all take the piss and he hates it when they do that, makes him feel shit. Well it makes me feel shit that if people are gonna take the piss he’s gonna get upset cos he’ll feel uncomfortable which surely just means he can’t like me as much? Idk :(
Does any of this even make sense? Okay idk just in one of them complaining moods. Why does he even ‘love’ me? I’m ugly and annoying and so soppy and ew no!:( then you get him, perfect.
I AM SO LUCKY BUT DISTANCE IS SUCH A FUCKING WHORE.
I’ll hardly ever see him :( that ‘s why i was considering finishing things with him twice, but he got upset, and it made me realise, we can’t lose each other.
But :( he lives like 3 hours away via train and it costs so much! Why can’t we just live closer :’( it’s so hard. I need to see him. I really do love him. So much.
Love him, hate distance.
